Sometimes the good fight

is refusing to panic

in the face of fear.

Today I was fighting to stay in the rest of God.

The enemy's weapon looked bigger, but mine is actually more accurate and more powerful. He's a killer. He's done it to others. He likes to hit people when they're down and take them out at the first sign of weakness. That's when he goes for the jugular. It doesn't look good.

Everything has to align perfectly for this to come out in my favor. To others it seems unlikely. The thought keeps creeping up, "What am I going to do? What am I going to do? What am I going to do?"

I say out loud, "It will happen by noon!" It brings me peace and peace to the person across the desk who is in charge of enforcing the penalty if it doesn't happen by noon.

Failure is not an option. I have to go through that cycle of speaking out loud what I KNOW in the face of the contrary APPEARANCE a couple of times. I pray in tongues and keep my listener on for any last minute direction from the Lord.

Frustration - felt it. Rejected it. Frustration is not faith.
Anxiety - felt it. Rejected it. Fear is the opposite of faith.

By rejected it, I mean I SAID out loud what the Word of God says about me. It's not spooky or weird. It just works.

Exclamate: 1 Timothy 6:12, Hebrews 4:10-12